13 June 2006

strengthening the family

cosmo is in day care. it is his second day. i did ok yesterday, today i am a wreck. i feel so far away. it's too long, too many hours too many days. he begins to feel distant, like a memory, like this wonderful little guy i know, but where is he? i will see him this evening.
no. this is absurd. to drop him off at 7am. to pick him up at 5pm.
how is this a family? i am his mother and he should be with me.

furthermore, i cannot even afford to pay for this. i had to borrow the money until i find a job that pays enough to cover day care (thankfully, someone was kind enough to lend me money). naturally, once i wrapped my mind around the fact that this had to happen, i wanted to find the best possible place for him to spend his days. i knew that i could survive this if i liked the people and the environment, and i knew he would be learning and growing in my absence. i researched all of the montessori schools in my area, only one had an opening, so that's where we went. the philosophy is right-on, the caregivers seem sweet, and the interaction with the other babies should be fun for him. i think it is a good place. the monthly fee is more than i pay for rent each month. it is like renting two apartments, a one bedroom and a two bedroom, and just living in the one bedroom. but it's not like renting two apartments. it's like sending your child off to be raised by strangers because you cannot come up with a better solution, or you don't have the means, or you didn't plan ahead, or this society/culture/government/nation does not support a mother needing to care for her baby.

"I believe that government has a responsibility to help strengthen

Washington's reaction came quickly last night, shortly after the 379-to-35 House passage of the Decency Enforcement Act. Within an hour of the vote, President Bush issued a statement saying he was ready to sign the bill into law: "I believe that government has a responsibility to help strengthen families," Bush said, adding that the bill, which boosts indecency fines 10-fold, "will make television and radio more family friendly."

--from Decency Act Vote Gets Quick D.C. Reaction
Brooks Boliek, The Hollywood Reporter, and Tony Sanders

i personally can't think of a better fucking way to strengthen the holy goddamn sacred family than fining dinky little low-watt college radio stations $325,000 for each "fuck" "cocksucker" or "muthafukkin'shit-eater" that appears in a goddamn fucking hip-hop rhyme.

thank you mr.president man. i love you. thank you for making this world a better place for our children. thank you for putting the family first. no child left behind. that's right. thank you.

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